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Absence makes the heart want more
My would've been step-sister and her husband had jobs that kept them apart for the majority of the week for the early years of their...
Apr 10, 20211 min read
Ouch...
I hate getting shots. I don't mind giving blood, it's not about the needles but about something being forced into my tissue like...
Apr 9, 20212 min read
Why oh why...
...do I bother with fetlife? How will we find one another? I just don't think we'll find one another there. Yet I can't fathom where we...
Apr 4, 20211 min read
Dreaming fears
I had a dream last night and I was so happy I recognized it for what it was... I feel guilt and shame about my sexuality because at...
Apr 3, 20213 min read
Could we survive today?
Today was such a blah, icky, yucky, bad day. I was at work by 7:15 AM and I left at 8:15 PM...and tomorrow will be more of the same...and...
Apr 1, 20212 min read
These are a few of my favorite things...
Yes, I was hearing The Sound of Music in my head when I wrote that. ...blindfolds ...Ayn Rand ...choking ...feeling your influence, in...
Mar 31, 20211 min read
Swinging or whatever you want to call it...
I have found this to be one of the things that is often viewed as mutually exclusive to a D/s relationship. I suspect many will bail...
Mar 31, 20211 min read
Simple, stupid fantasy
I routinely think about when we go out to eat together and you ordering for me. Not just relaying my order but choosing for me. I don't...
Mar 30, 20212 min read
Perfect, Perfection, Perfectionism
One of the greatest lessons I've learned in life is the connection between fear and perfection. If you demand perfection of yourself in...
Mar 30, 20212 min read
More songs for our playlist - Updated 4-11-21
Some have meaning, some are just great music, great beat, great piano, etc. Damnwells - Say, Come to Me The Velvet Underground - Pale...
Mar 29, 20211 min read
Sunday
What are you doing today? I wonder. My immediate thought was that you were going to be playing golf. I'll not be joining you. I miss...
Mar 28, 20211 min read
Hypnosis
I sense you are a skeptic, as I was, so I feel this requires some discussion. I think television has given us a very warped view of...
Mar 28, 20212 min read
You're not here, but I believe we've crossed paths
Because I travel extensively with my work, I believe our paths intersected somewhere. I don't know if we spoke or not or if we were just...
Mar 28, 20211 min read
Forgetting
I have a family member with dementia. Don't worry, it's not hereditary, there is a traumatic brain injury involved. Watching the pain...
Mar 28, 20211 min read
Watching You
I love watching you interacting with the people around you. I imagine it often. Your confidence and how it allows you to be comfortable...
Mar 27, 20211 min read
Groceries
I hate getting them. Long before COVID, I grocery shopped online. I haven't been in Target in probably six months, I was in Walmart last...
Mar 27, 20211 min read
Television?
I hate it. There is so much more to do with the precious time we have isn't there? I have streaming services but I rarely use them for...
Mar 27, 20211 min read
Texas
I fell in love with Texas. The wildflowers in the spring. The expansiveness. The moon rising over Hill Country larger than life. I never...
Mar 27, 20211 min read
Breath play
I thought about adding part of this under "Things of little appeal..." but I thought it deserved its own discussion. I love asphyxia type...
Mar 14, 20212 min read
Things of little appeal or bored indifference
There are certain things that I couldn't envision calling a hard limit because they aren't that offensive but they are things I can't...
Mar 14, 20211 min read
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