Why oh why...

...do I bother with fetlife?

How will we find one another? I just don't think we'll find one another there. Yet I can't fathom where we will.

I hate my skepticism in fate. My negativity is no doubt unhelpful.

I realize that while I believe in you now, I am less convinced about our finding one another, especially when I go on there and encounter hallow, insincere bullshit.

Somehow I need to find my footing and patience in the face of the unknown about the how and find a way to trust in the future.