I can't believe it's been nearly two years since I've written to you on here. I had been writing on fet and though I've taken it all...

Make sure my primary partner realizes up front how many FWBs are involved Make sure the FWBs actually are okay with sharing Make sure the...

So, I went to my first dungeon night. It was not what I expected...though I realize in hindsight it's because I had very unrealistic...

I truly don't care about Christmas. It's not the fact that it's Christmas that is so fucking depressing. It's that RV is done with me. ...

...but men are being fucking insane tonight. Not only is RV being ridiculous. JS invited me to meet him after a concert, then told me not...

I'm realizing something in my response to men I'm talking to. I have little to no respect for a man (Dom) who is in a miserable...

I'm thinking about you today. Here with me waiting to drive two hours for Thanksgiving with family tomorrow. I know we would have fucked...

I watch us look for reasons to justify our behavior. For reasons to be apart. For reasons to doubt. For reasons to question. For reasons...

I'm hoping time away will allow my mind to quiet and get the perspective it so desperately needs my love. Time to rebuild my broken down...

I'm at war with myself. I know what I want, yet I feel so exhausted in the pursuit. I feel the enormous push to trick myself into...

I've never been one to fight for things that are personally important to me. I've gotten a little better when it comes to fighting for...

It's funny, I've been thinking lately how the absence of something I can conceive of is more painful than the nothingness of the void I...

Written over several days and transitions... It's hard to write now that I am feeling like I may have found you...thinking you might be...

...why do I do this to myself? I remember driving up the street, just past the intersection at First heading toward home...talking to...

I had the privilege of dating a man who I knew was emotionally unavailable to me (he was recovering from a devastating break-up). Though...

I don't know what it is about bondage. It's a psychological thing for sure. There is something about feeling that powerless and out of...

My tears are because I wish you were part of tonight. It was everything I had hoped it would be, everything I needed physically...but you...

I'm working on a story for you, I got a bit stalled on it but hope to finish it this weekend. I do need to confess that I'm going to take...

I am sorry I've been away for so long. I don't have a compelling excuse. I was just feeling a bit hopeless and disconnected from you if...

I'm talking with a married man on FetLife. I find married men who are cheating fascinating though I won't be playing with him. I learned...