July 23, 2021 - Until I can find you...

I decided for now it would be best to hire a life coach to make me (us) possible.

I've been fighting the fear too long and losing, I just need someone to call me on my BS. I had my first session with her this evening...I looked at a lot of people...she's great. I think you'd think I was crazy but you'd kiss me on the head and indulge me.

I have actually been doing well on so many fronts since I got back from retreat. I broke up with one of my two toxic "friends" and I'm all over my goals...it feels good. I think the coach was scratching her head a little bit as to what I need her for but honestly, I'm great at the easy stuff, it's the scary stuff that I struggle with. There's nothing scary about having tea every evening.

I was listening to Atlas Shrugged a bit more over the weekend and I truly believe Dagny is submissive. She's just a strong submissive CRAVING a man stronger than her to submit to.

I'm afraid you will have only watched the movies. I'll get you to at least listen to the book though...the movies are TRASH compared to the book!

I think we have different taste in literature. I was going to make a reference to a John Irving and I was immediately greeted with the reply you wouldn't know it...what do you read? Now I'm so terribly curious.

I was just feeling especially jazzed this evening and thought I'd drop you a note. And...shocking as it may be...I had a good day at work. I have one bright shiny spot and today it shined super bright. Boy did I need it.

I hope you had a good day.