Start and Stop

That is how the last several weeks have been. I am struggling to get into a routine and stay there. Traveling out of here throws things off for me...I don't get my laundry done over the weekend or my groceries purchased and then when I come in the next week I feel tired and behind the ball the entire week. Then I get settled in again for two weeks...then I start all over.

And I feel disconnected from you again for some reason.

I don't know if it is because I've got so much work stuff on my plate or what the deal is but the closeness and optimism I felt almost a year ago now seems to have waned. I wish I knew why.

Are things changing with you as well? I wonder what is happening for you in this moment. Is there something within your world that is causing this feeling of disconnectedness between us?

I forge ahead regardless. I make my plans and I do the things right before me and I hope that in some way, they will lead me to you when the time is right.

Oh how I wish we hadn't wasted so much time (and continue to) being apart.