Out of Practice

I'm out of practice working from home, being around family 24/7, being out of my routine. I'm even unfamiliar with my own bed, questioning how I slept on it for two years without destroying my back.

Some days I wonder if my adaptation to my fears of commitment and attachment have kept me from you (oh let's be honest, there's nothing to wonder about...it has). It's frustrating to be so clear and certain on what I want and yet to accept and acknowledge the barriers I've put in place to keep me from you.

What would my life be like if I removed those barriers? I can imagine it. Part of me welcomes it. Part of me is utterly terrified by it!

Practice makes perfect they say. So maybe I need to invest in practicing getting comfortable with my discomfort around removing my barriers. I've accommodated myself for far too long.