Now the work begins

So getting to the point of resigning was a big deal and so much emotion and anticipation led up to the decision and now that the decision is made, it feels a bit anti-climactic.

I really need to start packing this weekend. It will force me to make some decisions and make me feel better about everything in general but for some reason I'm feeling a bit stuck.

I'm thinking of you as I pack. What would you tell me to let go of, what would you tell me to keep.

Are you a fellow traveler? However will our lives intersect? And once they do, how will we weave them together?

I am submissive yet I am so determined and a bit stubborn. I fear I'm so set in my single ways that I will fight the compromises I'll need to make.

Please don't let that deter you.

Please don't let me sabotage us.

For my own good, make me meet you where we need to be in order to be together. Remind me of these words.

Make me remember how much I've been missing you and how much I wanted this...yet how fearful I knew I would be.

Pull me kicking and fighting into the life I'm so afraid of...I will thank you in the end.