Marriage

I'm not really a fan of the construct.

The idea of a legal, paper binding isn't something that resonates with me.

Yet there are certain things that do appeal to me about the whole thing.

When I think of a wedding, I think of the whole "giving away the bride" and I think about willingly giving myself away to you.

There are some great kinky renderings of swinging couples (though I'm still not sure that is the right word for what we do) having group sex on their wedding day...some with her in a wedding dress. Is it sick and wrong that I find that highly arousing?

I like the idea of publicly declaring our commitment in a way that would be understood by our close friends and family who aren't in the lifestyle as well...but I know it would be anything but a normal ceremony with normal vows.

For some reason, kneeling at your feet is a vision I see in these scenarios when I indulge my mind and allow it to wander down this particular path. Resting my head against your thighs, feeling your fingers running through my hair.

Such a feeling of surrender.

I can imagine the fearlessness I would feel, that I'd have to feel, to allow me to come to that place.

What fantasies do you indulge in that you are reluctant to allow yourself on a regular basis?