It Isn't Just Fear...Is it?

So back in April, I met someone on Fet, we had a great conversation I wrote about on here, and ultimately decided we weren't a good fit.

But we continued to chat casually on a fairly infrequent basis.

Over the last few weeks...those conversations got more frequent and escalated and I found myself really WANTING him to be you. Yet there was this nagging voice in the back of my mind telling me he wasn't.

I re-read our initial conversations and I stand by what I wrote at the time and my gut tells me I'm right that he isn't you.

But part of me (God I'm so neurotic) worries that I could miss seeing you simply because I'm so damn scared and that when you are in front of me, I'll be trying to find things to prove you're NOT you because I'll be so afraid.

I really need to figure out how to avoid that pitfall...I just hope you will persist and not allow me to evade you.

I promise I'll really work on this, I realize it is important for our future.