If You'd Been Here

I've been away from here for a while.

In part it was because I was trying to figure out what to do with myself in the face of more work disappointments. I'm still working on that. I'm not sure why I'm so afraid to jump this time but I am. I have a few things I'm looking at which feel solid. We'll see I guess.

I was also on vacation for a week. It was SO nice! I needed that escape from the work drama.

I don't know as it would have been the kind of vacation you'd have enjoyed with me, I was babysitting, but I could imagine you there.

I have been thinking lately about whether or not I'd feel the same about my work situation if you were in my life. I feel like you'd have such wisdom and clarity to share with me which would make such a difference in my perspective.

I also still feel the fear of you. I'm not sure why. I frustrate myself over the whole thing.