I Quit!

I know you would have made me do it months ago.

I feel a bit like Dorothy at the end of The Wizard of Oz...I had the power all along to lift myself out of this nightmare...I just had to find my proverbial balls.

And once I did...I realized they were there the whole time.

Never have I ever heard "Leap and the net will appear" so loudly and forcefully in my head as I did yesterday.

So now what? Well, I wouldn't be me if I actually knew that for sure yet. I'm probably going to go back to the travel life...which has many perks. Seeing my child and grandchild more...and my hairdresser!

The sexual opportunities are also much more intriguing. Here it's been hard to indulge as I'm in a fairly visible community role, but traveling...so much easier on every front...locally because I'll be unknown and where I'm going...because I'll be unknown.

It does mean, when we find one another, I'll be away more. I think we'll like the sexual dynamic that creates but I know it will be hard on us too. And I'll want to be with you most of all...so visiting those others will require coordination.

But maybe I'm missing the obvious...maybe you travel too? Is that how we meet? I'm not sure why that's never occurred to me.

All I know is, you aren't here where I am today and leaving gets me one step closer to you.

So now on to the details of moving...packing, mail forwarding, giving notice on my apartment.

I had two amazing conversations today about different opportunities and my biggest dilemma is going to be choosing which one to take. I wish you were here to give me advice.