Essential

I was communicating with an executive assistant this week. She is someone I've barely interacted with as I don't meet often with her leader.

She was trying to coordinate a meeting, and of course my calendar is ugly. She had not included my assistant so I just responded directly and told her I would miss the first fifteen minutes of the meeting but it was okay, I wasn't essential.

When she replied back, she included a wonderful sticker that said "You Are Essential".

It struck me in the moment just how validating that was but then it continued to creep up for me the rest of the day and into the evening and even into the next day...and clearly now.

It is rare that I feel essential.

I feel essential to my child but other than that...not so much.

With you in my life, I feel like we would be essential to one another. Our presence in one another's lives makes each of us possible. Possible to be who we truly are and express ourselves completely.

I am sorry for the delay. I'm not sure what is wrong with me. I wish you were here to help me figure it all out. Simplifying my life down to being nothing more than a means for your pleasure for even an hour, bending to you completely...would be a welcome purpose. I can imagine feeling essential under your hand.