Pain

It's been a long week and the pain has been the unpleasant, emotional kind.

I try not to experience stress, but this week it has been inescapable. I'm not one prone to tears but this week, the stress and frustration has had me in tears to the point of sobbing.

I don't know why I'm so afraid to jump. I don't know why I'm so afraid to say "fuck it", I don't know why I'm so afraid to advocate and escalate for myself and those around me.

I wish you were here to give me advice...or at least beat me when I came home to give me the release I so desperately need!